sad

I am in pain today. I think it is worse because of stress...I had a HUGE fight with my sister yesterday and not long after that my ovary started hurting like hell. It never fails that the pain comes along when I least need it....I am supposed to have dinner with my husband and his family this evening and I really don't need to be high on pain killers when I do. It seriously feels like something is stabbing me, and all it really does is remind me that I am infertile. I have told everyone that if I could just get out of pain it would help with my depression because pain just reminds me that I am broken and can't have a baby. I don't know. I really need to be able to go back to school or work or something so that even when I am in pain I can at least be busy and not here thinking about random things and writing them in a blog that no one really reads. I am just sad and in pain today. I don't know what else to say.