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Tuesday, December 8, 2009

When it rains.....its a fucking blizzard

I am currently writing this from my parents house cause Dan and I are snowed in. Here by choice, though, because they are 20 miles closer to town then us. Anyway it has been snowing all day and even though I am trying not to think about it I can't help but think I am supposed to be a mom.

I was supposed to be pregnant last Christmas. I was supposed to get pregnant with no problems. I was SUPPOSED to never see an Iowa snow again. Now here I sit in my mothers living room trying not to cry while it snows a foot and a fucking half and I take my birth control pill because everyone seems to think that it helps. I hate this shit.

Fucking snow.

Fucking Iowa.

Fucking infertility.

Fucking endo.

Fucking blizzard that is my life.

3 comments:

shell87 said...

hugs.
Dont know if i can say anything of use at all. but sounds like you need a good hug.

:(

autoimmunelife said...

((hugs))
Also... I like the look your blog has now! :)

Christopher said...

I love the layout of your blog too. I hope that you have a wonderful holiday season. I have had MANY ladyfriends who have had endo, I know it is a rough thing to go through and I send you the best.

-Christopher